*T.T*

i miss you guys SOOOO much.

can't wait to graduate. then i can go back!!

*sob*

report on my block test 2

"pimple-fully stressed up Sheena holds back her tears after screwing up her GP paper"

WEAH >.<

First PG session with 5th batch of PG members!!!

Introductory PG session included singing of "You'll Be Fine", learning the "Kuai Le Chong Bai" dance, listening to the ABBA medley and lastly assigned homework to go home and look in the mirror XD

There are many many shows coming up. For the benefit of the forgetful =.=

1st July (Sat) 7pm - 9pm (dunno which slot...) 30mins show

6th July (Thurs) 9pm - 915pm 15mins show

16th July (Sun) Multiple timeslots. 1pm, 230pm, 430pm, 7pm. (iirc)

- Too many items to list. XD

Note: New song to learn "Cant Take My Eyes Off You"
Jiayou for everybody's solo and group items!!! AZA AZA FIGHTING!!!

Time for celebration!!!

Congrats to all who made it back in =3

See you this Friday after my class!!!

Bodhi Walk Show

hey peeps! I've sent all the pics we took that day to joann. Ask them from her if you guys are interested. Cos, for some stupid reasons, this stupid com of mine can't upload these few stupid pics to this site. Hahah, alright. See ya! (:

PG Auditions

So... today is the day =)

Many of you guys looked so panicky today. Connie mummy on the verge of freaking out.

All the best to you guys.

My Thoughts~*

This is going to be quite a long entry. but i just felt that i should share some of my thoughts wif u guys (if u're interested).

My Thoughts:

last nite was truly emotional. i can't say that i cried, cos i didn't, but seeing the tears of so many of my frens struck a chord deep inside me. i'm leaving this group of wonderful ppl.

at the very least i know that i'll always haf their frenship. but wat reallie saddened me was that i will no longer be able to work with them; share their joys and sorrows, or even just hang out wif them in the same way i had in the past year. time reallie passes fast, doesn't it?

many spoke out about their fears, apprehensions, dreams and aspirations last nite. it made me feel great that i had such a great family in LWS.. ppl who were willing to share wat they had. this is so different from wat i experience in uni.. as i said, most ppl were competitors rather than frens. but in the PG i reallie felt at home.

Puzzled & Full of Regret:

but yet there were times when i felt that i didn't belong. perhaps i felt the same way as darryl did: that i didn't deserve a place in the PG. seriously speaking, i haf no idea why i passed the auditions in the first place. i'm still kinda puzzled by it.

i've never had any dreams to pursue a music career, which was why i placed so much more emphasis on my studies instead. but it was after joining the PG that i developed a slight confidence in myself, and in the way i should present myself on stage. i nv got to the point of total relaxation while i'm performing (kinda hard habit to kick.. i think i've been tense my whole life), which is kind of a regret for me. i guess i nv reallie cherished all those chances i had to perform and to improve myself.

Feeling Guilty:

now that i'm entering my 4th year of uni, my parents haf been asking me to stop singing and concentrate on my school work. i've seen the worry in their eyes constantly for the past year cos i've been spending quite some time at LWS.. especially when the concert at esplanade came. i could literally see them panicking. i felt so guilty then.. although i tried to show them that i could cope wif sch and PG, i guess there was still nothing i could do to ease their fears.

so when i finally settled down to study for my exams, i could see the relief in their faces. i must say that they were extremely worried that i wouldn't do well in this sem's exams.. thank goodness i still passed everything rather satiscfactorily. but i could see them breaking out in cold sweat. i can fully understand their reactions.. they didn't want me fall at this last lap of my studying life.

but there is another major contributing factor to my decision to leave: i feel that i am unable to give my all to the PG, and it's terribly unfair to you guys. esp those who reallie gave their all. let's face it guys, it's been a year but i haven't reallie been performing much. i'm absent in 70% of all performances. not only am i feeling guilty towards my parents, i'm feeling guilty towards the PG. when i joined, i promised WSLS that i would contribute and give my all. i failed in that promise.

My Decision:

in both aspects, the decision was clear: it was best that i leave. i struggled wif this thought for a few months, becos i reallie couldn't bear the thot of leaving this big family. i didn't mention it to anyone.. not even my parents. it was something i had to decide on my own. those 3 months were reallie hard for me.. performances and exams were coming, reports were due, i was involved in lab work.. everything just piled up at once.

perhaps some of you may think that i'm trying to avoid the challenges ahead.. and maybe u're right. but i need to take things one step at a time. i shall finish my honours before deciding if i am able to come back and make more contributions to the PG. this is only fair.. there was no point in staying if i couldn't give my all to you guys. but when that time comes, i hope i make it thru the auditions again!

Future PG:

in the mean time, you guys will always haf me as a fren and constant supporter of all your performances. i hope all of you will be able to "sheng" together as a group, and rise to greater heights. as huan cheng was saying, "i hope to see the same PG after the auditions." so jia you everyone!! i'm sure all of you will pass wif flying colours!! don't be intimidated by those 4 ppl in the panel!! (they all very frenly one rite??) *hahaha*

p/s: don't think u're rid of me so easily. i'll still pop by once in a while to check on u ppl. *^o^* one more thing.. thanks JJ for that cheesecake!! altho i couldn't finish it. hahaha.

Yoyo guys.
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Todays session was super heartwarming and it really shows me and reminds me I have a family of friends with the same passion as me. Let us all pursue it together man. All the problems we have all the goals we made, all the dreams we have, lets solve em and work em out one by one together! I love you guys. >.<> MUACKS!
Btw thanks to JJ for the super big and nice Big O cheesecake! Hurhur.
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-Shermaine

Wow... Darryl's post inspiring me to write this...

Yeah talking about the initial thoughts when I first joined PG...

Well, let me tell you guys about my experience. I was kinda a blur kid lah... had done 1 year of UV classes... and then saw the PG audition posters in school. To the best of my knowledge... there was no existing PG during my time as a student... apparently the previous PG had disbanded and it was only later on that I got to know about all the things that happened in school. So technically, I never had a senior PG member, for my batch, we only had WSLS, JJ and HC.

Why did I join PG? Honestly, right at the start... it was just another audition. I had taken part in the internal singing competition and I emerged 3rd in my category, Tiffany (also ex-PG) won 1st =) Then when this audition came, I joined it with my class. I went through the theory and singing auditions... (we had 3 rounds of auditions man) and made it into the PG.

We were very fortunate, because WSLS took a lot of time to train us. He taught us many things and groomed us from the noobs we were to something thats presentable (haha) but all these time, it has never occurred to me that PG is prestigious and exclusive. only now then do I know what others think of it.

So I realise how lucky I was to be in PG... then continuing to be in it with the next batch... and now yet another batch will be incoming!

Unlike Darryl, I didnt join PG with a dream. Not really. But I developed my dream while I was in PG. PG and WSLS, JJ and HC... they have pushed me to beyond my self imposed limits. I'm very thankful for this experience that has made me grown much more than any other place could have done so. None of you have seen me 4 years ago... so maybe you cannot imagine... but take my word for it... PG has done me a world of good.

Although it has never occurred to me that PG is prestigious, but I have always cherished being in PG. During my uni years, it was definitely the highlight of my week... every friday night is something I look forward to during my dreary lectures and tutorials. I am no saint... but I dare say that I have put in effort and contributed to PG always. That is because I care about it, and I love it. Its that simple.

So for those of you who cherish PG... make it known. and make it seen.
May the force be with you.

My Last Show~*

hey guys.. this sat's show shall be my last cos i'm gonna leave the PG for now. i'm going to miss all of u.. but don't 4get me k? it's been a fantastic year cos u guys are the best.. haven't reallie been contributing much to the PG during the past year so i sincerely apologise. so as not to drag u guys down wif my lack of contribution, i've decided to leave the PG.. also becos i'm in my final year of uni and i'm going to be kinda bz wif my final year projects and other modules.. perhaps i'll come back for auditions again after i graduate?

in the meantime i'll come back to visit u guys often, so don't 4get me k? haha. all the best for all future performances and do inform me of any supper gatherings or shows so i can go and support ya??? *^o^*

whoever else joining superband/superstar etc in the future let me know so i can go support too! jia you to those taking part in competitions!! JIA YOU JIA YOU!!